
You wake up and your shoulders are already near your ears. By mid-morning your lower back is aching. You are tired in a way that a full night of sleep does not fix. So you see a doctor, you get the scan, and the scan comes back clear. Nothing torn. Nothing slipped. Nothing broken.
And you walk out feeling worse than when you walked in, because now you hurt and you have no reason for it.
Let me say the important part first. A clear scan does not mean you are making it up. It means the imaging looked at your bones and your discs and found them in decent shape. It did not look at how your nervous system has been living for the last twenty years.
Pain is an alarm, not a damage report
Most of us assume pain works like the warning light on a car. Light on, something broken. Light off, all fine.
The body does not work that neatly. Pain is closer to an alarm system. The brain takes in what is happening in the tissue, what happened last time, how stressed you are, how tired you are, and how safe things feel right now. Then it decides how loud to make the signal.
An alarm that has been going off for years gets sensitive. It starts firing at smaller things. That is why some people feel a flare-up after a hard week at work and none after a hard week of training.
Where childhood comes into it
In the late 1990s, a large study run by the CDC and Kaiser Permanente asked more than 17,000 adults about their childhoods. Felitti and his team grouped the hard stuff into 10 kinds of adverse childhood experience. Abuse. Neglect. Growing up around violence at home, addiction, mental illness, a parent in prison, parents separating.
Then they looked at what those adults' health was like decades later. The pattern was hard to ignore.
Later work followed the same thread. A 2017 review published in Lancet Public Health, led by Hughes, found that people who reported 4 or more of those experiences had roughly double the odds of living with chronic pain as adults.
Double the odds is not a sentence. Plenty of people with a high count have no pain at all, and plenty of people with a low count hurt every day. But if you grew up braced for something, and your body still braces now, you are not imagining a connection that is not there.
A body that learned early to stay ready does not get a memo saying the danger has passed. It keeps the muscles half-switched-on. It keeps the breathing shallow and high in the chest. Years of that shows up as tight shoulders, a jaw that aches, a back that never fully settles, and exhaustion that has nothing to do with how much you slept.
What this looks like on a normal Tuesday
- Your shoulders creep up without you noticing, and you only catch it at 3pm
- You breathe into your chest rather than low into your belly
- You are tired all day and wide awake at 11pm
- The pain moves around. Back one month, neck the next
- Flare-ups follow stressful weeks more closely than they follow hard sessions
What movement can honestly do
You cannot talk a nervous system out of guard mode. You can show it evidence.
Every time you train and nothing bad happens, you give your body one small piece of proof: effort happened, it was manageable, it ended, you were fine. One session does very little. Forty sessions across three months start to move the setting.
That is the real mechanism here. Repeated, predictable, boring proof of strength and safety.
Alongside that, you get the ordinary benefits. Stronger legs and back handle daily load better. Sleep tends to improve. And there is something in doing a hard thing on purpose, on your terms, that changes how you feel about your own body.
What movement cannot do
It is not therapy. Training will not process what happened to you, and a coach is not a counsellor. If old memories are surfacing, that deserves proper support, not more squats.
Pushing hard also backfires here more than most places. Sessions that leave you wrecked read as another threat to a system that is already on alert. Some people feel raw or tearful after a heavy session. That is a signal to make the next one smaller, not a reason to stop.
A 15-minute session that keeps the alarm low
Do this three times a week. The whole point is to finish feeling like you could have done it again.
- Two minutes of breathing. Sit or lie down. Breathe out longer than you breathe in. Roughly in for 4, out for 6.
- Four minutes easy. Walk, slow cycling, arm circles, hips loose. Enough to warm up, not enough to puff.
- Eight minutes strength. Two or three rounds of: 8 to 12 squats down to a chair, 8 to 12 push-ups against a wall or a kitchen counter, 20 to 30 seconds of plank or dead bug. Walk slowly for 30 seconds between rounds.
- One minute lying down. Breathe out slowly. Do not skip this part.
Stop every set about three reps before it gets genuinely hard. Yes, that feels too easy. Easy is what makes it repeatable, and repeatable is the only thing that works here.
| Helps | Backfires |
|---|---|
| Same three days each week, same time | Training only when you feel good |
| Stopping short of failure | Chasing soreness as proof it worked |
| 15 minutes done on a bad day | Skipping the week because you missed Monday |
| Slow, boring progress over months | Testing your back to see if it still hurts |
| Sleep and food treated as part of the plan | Adding hard cardio to burn off stress |
How to tell it is working
Not by how you feel after one session. Track two numbers instead. Write down the sessions you completed, and rate how you felt one hour afterwards from 0 to 10. Look at the month, not the day.
The signs to watch for are quiet ones. Fewer bad days in a row. Falling asleep faster. Reaching for something on a high shelf without bracing first.
One last thing
Mauritius is talking about this more openly than it used to, and that is a good thing. If some of this landed close to home, we have a free anonymous 10-question test at my90plan.com/tests/childhood-trauma that might help you put words to it.
And if you need to talk to someone, these are free and they are there:
- CDU (Child Development Unit): 113
- Family Welfare: 139
- Befrienders Mauritius
You are allowed to take your body seriously even when the scan says nothing. Start with 15 minutes. Do it again on Thursday.
Keep reading
Your guilt trip response is a flinch
Nobody talks you into it. You agree before the thinking part of you arrives, which is why understanding the pattern has never once stopped you doing it.
MindsetYou'd turn down a five-minute workout
Nobody says they haven't got time for a two-minute favour. The phrase only shows up when the thing being asked feels big, which means the problem was never the hour.
RecoveryWhy rest isn't fixing how tired you are
Nothing much happened last week and you still finished it knocked out. The reason isn't that you need more sleep, it's that your body never got told the week was over.